Curtain Call

One last outcry, one last wish.
As I say goodbye, for possibly the last time,
I can' help myself but saying sorry.
The lives, I've touched, tainted,
The colours I've experienced and made.
Now only a black mark will be left,
staining my memory of those around me.
As the curtains fall, I can't help but think...


Was any of it worth it?

Cloudy days

Wish I could smile as much as I used to

Like humans do

Little by little we inch forward,
Slowly as the ledge comes closer into view,
Like six broken ponies the seething mass,
Writhing and bubbling, twists the lie,
Wind on the face, we look into the breeze,
Knowing with just a step it can change so fast.

Shadow of the Day

No bad things said,
no bad blood bled.

Just a solitary tear,
rolls down my frozen heart

Up the proverbial creek...

Cant concentrate on revising, cant concentrate on coursework... Im screwed.

Headaches

Fucking hate the fear and loathing in my life.
At least the one person who I cared would
care understands.

All Roads Lead Back To Rome

The direction that they all go in heads to exactly the same place, so why do I sometimes feel as if I'm going in completely the wrong direction?

Flawed notions

Just because life is mysterious doesnt me that every single little thing someone one is meant and mixed with secret meanings! Stop looking for things that don't exist! Stop feeling sorry for yourself noone else does! And stop being so bloody minded!

Its been a while

Now I know there are those out there who will agree with me on this...

Sometimes a great mine can be a horrible thing.

I wouldn't say that I have a great mind, but I do find it infuriating how
I examine every aspect of things that happen to me, both in and outside
of my control. Making links that don't exist, and ignoring the links that
do because I'm focusing on the wrong things.

It helps to have a rant I know and get things off your chest, but for those
who might actually bother to read this, it'll just seem like another juvenile
with too much crap in their head and should just get on with dealing with
it. Well that can be the problem sometimes, getting on and dealing with
it just leads to more problems than when you started out in this world.

Well sod this, just going to ignore my head and carry on regardless, it
would seem by heart has better direction than my head so I'm just going
to let that lead me instead.

Fucking peace out.